Introduction

I made this blog because I wanted to see my own improvement because I prefer the new me than the old depressed one, yes I'm depressed until Books saved me and I'm thinking that I might inspire others at the same time. 

I was inspired by Katy Swartz Black from Lux by Jennifer Armentrout, because she also love books and express it through making blogs in the internet and she shares them too. I also wanted to include Tessa Gray and William Herondale, because they both love books.

According for Tessa "Only the very weak minded refuse to be influenced by literature and poetry." Those words really inspires me, it's the first time someone voiced out the un-explainable feelings inside me for books, especially from Will "It was books that kept me from taking my own life after I thought I could never love anyone, never be loved again. It was books that made me feel that perhaps I was not completely alone. They could be honest with me, and I with them." This words rattled my whole being.

Remember when I mentioned that I was depressed, I am depressed for a year, I felt unloved, trash, useless, a disappointment and a failure for all those times. A walking human being without a feeling of happiness. An empty shell, I even experimented summoning a devil, to destroy happiness around me, how can they be happy when I'm this sad and lonely? I even studied demonology by then.

Anyway, I don't want to talk about it anymore. If your curious if I had any medical help, my answer is, none. Books, Anime, Movies and History became my companion. I never let any human close to me, because I always think they will hurt me. It's be better to be alone by then than to be hurt, but sooner I discovered that being alone hurt more than anything else. So here I am.

What's the point of saying this? I want you guys, you, who read my blog to know me, think of this as my introduction. Anyway enjoy! You'll know me more along the way.